Valmiki Ramayana Ayodhya Kanda Sarga 72 Shloka 28
Original Shlokaतदिदं ह्यन्यथा भूतं व्यवदीर्णं मनो मम। पितरं यो न पश्यामि नित्यं प्रियहिते रतम्।।2.72.28।।
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तत् इदम् all this, अन्यथा differently, भूतम् has happened, यः such me, नित्यम् always, प्रियहिते my welfare and happiness, रतम् intent on, पितरम् father, न पश्यामि I do not behold, मम my, मनः mind, व्यवदीर्णम् is shattered.
Now everything has turned out to be different. My mind is shattered.I no longer behold my father who is ever intent on my welfare and happiness.